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MYSPACE
that which did not kill you
i am that which did not kill you.
it made you stronger,
but my eyes are the ones that
are closing.
when did you say i was beautiful?
did you mean it?
i didn't.
long strings of pearls
in seaweed
strands
and black satin shoes, we're dancing,
and the only thing you asked
is how much longer?
that was the
last time
i looked at the clock for you.
i guess i was the only one wishing
that the moment would never end.
it's
your eyes closing now,
but just to sleep.
tomorrow is a new day.
you're taping photographs to your wall,
and
so am i.
in different rooms.
we always set aside
the pictures of each other.
my papercuts are bleeding for
you,
so put down that razor
and put on a smile.
time to forget to call.
i don't remember your number anyways.
you
always knew mine.
i was never the one to call.
now the digits are dyslexic
and the only sound is the dial tone.
never mind.
we'll talk tomorrow.
tomorrow is a new day.
tomorrow is an old day.
tomorrow is the same day.
i wasn't expecting anything different.
you watch television while getting dressed.
i am the hourglass girl with
the smooth skin
and the swollen lips and i saw you naked
in a way i'd never known you to be.
the commercial ended
and we both went back to our lives.
i didn't talk to you much today
but i said hello,
and you even remembered
to say it back.
we're all still friends.
but what was that book you told me to read?
i never did,
and i think
you know that already.
my face is glass
and paper.
i'm sorry.
no, not really.
(your fingers bend against
band-aid tendons,
and those two pills are still in my pocket.)
how old are you?
i am a thousand years old, today
and tomorrow.
when you were taping pictures to your wall,
there was one last polaroid of me.
how did i look?
and
who's smiling in my place now?
i was always more alone than you
and that's why everything i say is
melting back
to you
and questions that i cannot answer.
so i won't ask this time.
please put a gun to my head,
because i'm
the one you're killing with your silence.
we're all just friends now.
ever since i failed to kill you with me.
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